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Ryou sighed quietly, making his way down the hallway. Today was Valentine's Day. While he would never admit it out loud, Ryou was a hopeless romantic. He was happy that his friends all had someone on this day, but he wished it also for himself. There was only one person that had his heart, his best friend Malik Ishtar. He wasn't sure when he fell for Malik. Maybe it was when he first met him; while Bakura had taken over his body during Battle City as he sat in the soul room. Maybe it was during the time that they talked on the boat going to the pharaoh's resting place. Or maybe, it was when Ryou thought he would never see Malik again when the

Scared to death Forlorn friend More deception Where do I begin? I saw you look at me And I wondered if you knew There's a crack in the mask But I don't want you to see It's funny how you can drift From a person When you see them Everyday Now you're like a distant memory A pert of my past I don't think I can ever get back Pretend and abandon Hidden perspectives Fly again Was I really lost? A tormented angel Bleeding in the arms of her savior Or will I be saved? Reaching for help I've lost track of all time here Not that there was any time To begin with I hope to find my way to civilization Out of this inescapable pr

Dec. 23 It's my birthday today. And I'm all alone. I thought this birthday would be different. Friends by my side and my love right next to me. But, instead I'm in a hotel overlooking the ocean, and I have no one. This has to be Karma for all the horrible things I am as a person. I should have known I'd always be alone; my own mother died giving birth to me. I miss her more than anyone will ever know. I don't even know her, but I miss her. I often wonder if things would have been different if she had lived to see me grow up. Would any of the horrible things that happened to me, actually happen?  Would she have helped me grow as a human? Woul

Dec. 20 So I did it… I left… I'm here now at my special place where I go when this holiday and month comes around. It's been two days, and it's been the worst two days of my life. I couldn't bear the look on Pryou's face as I walked away and drove off to come here. The view here is so pretty… but it would have been so much better with Pryou… he would love it here.  I should be focusing on forgetting this stupid month… but it's been two days and all I can do is think of Pry and the look on his face. We haven't been apart like this since we've together, I didn't think I'd miss him that much… but he's the love of m

Dec. 15 Three days… Three days then make my decision to leave or not… I had a better day today. Pryou and I went to the mall and even I hated all the Christmas things and wanted to run far from it… I suffered through it for Pry. But is that what I am supposed to do? Suffer? I didn't want to violently destroy anything today, so does that mean I'm getting better with all this stuff?  Or is only with Pryou and the other does the pain seem to hurt less. Maybe for once this year, I should stay here and be with the others and the one I love. My birthday is getting closer too, that makes me hate this month too. My father hated me for

Dec. 10 Still feel like leaving… it's only eight days before I disappear. I hope this is the right thing to do. I know I'll be hurting people by leaving, but shouldn't this be my choice? Shouldn't I get to choose whether to stay or go? I shouldn't be guilt tripped into staying with everyone.  Nor should someone bitch to me that I'm doing the wrong thing by leaving and running from my problems. You guys don't know everything I've been through… hell Pry doesn't know some things about me. I hate my birthday for one thing. The reason should be pretty obvious. Christmas wasn't any better, so if I do leave, the others might just have to